Tenth Wind - [ Accidental Voice Post ]

[bantorain]

-recorder suddenly clicks on. It had been dropped Virginia has been crying-

--ou'd like some of the people I met here, Momma. There are a lot of nice and wonderful people whom have been more than kind to me...

Ginpachi-sensei has been teaching me a new language so I can read his comic books. They really are amazing, like the adventure stories I read as a child...or Daddy's story of Drifting across the wilderness. Gintoki himself is an amazing man...he and another saved my life from a strange creature called a bear upon my arrival!

The other man...Sanosuke...Momma, you'll think I'm silly, but I fell for him at first sight. I mean...it turned out to be fruitless in the end, but he is still a wonderful friend and he always watches out for me. He reminds me of you, actually...always so strong and kind in spite of everything. Maybe that's why I fell in love...

Then there's Sougo...he is a military man. He...you know, I'd rather not talk about him, Momma. I've stopped talking to him...

And Matt...Momma, you'd laugh, I know. He was my first real kiss. Funny...it took leaving Filgaia all together to finally do that. He's cute, funny, and...well, I don't know, Momma. It's strange, but...I hope this is more than just fleeting infatuation like it was with Sano. He's the closest person to me now besides Gintoki, after all...

-crying becomes more apparent, less controlled-

Momma...I want to go home. I don't want to be in this memoriless world any longer. Whoever dreamed of this place...I want to leave those white flowers on your grave again. I want to see my friends again...to feel the winds of Filgaia in my hair...I can't take this anymore...

They play with my feelings, toss my heart around...curse me and torture me for their twisted game. I'm not strong without the memories of Filgaia behind me...I miss you so much Momma. I can't do this anymore! I lost Bantorain! What if I lose his memory, too? What can I even do to stop it? I'm so helpless!

I can't do this, Momma...I can't live like this in Sieben. It's not home, and nothing here even remotely like home exists...Momma...help me, please! I'm so tired...so weak...

I want to go home... -she repeats this for a long while until the recording eventually stops on its own-

Comments

Re: Voice | Private

[rapier-ex.livejournal.com]

Hearing you laugh...it's really wonderful...

Voice | Private

[all-heart-sano.livejournal.com]

Well, I'll be trying to do it more often, now that I'm back to normal.

You sound like you're feeling a little better...I'm glad.

Re: Voice | Private

[rapier-ex.livejournal.com]

I just needed to some time with Momma, that's all...

Voice | Private

[all-heart-sano.livejournal.com]

I understand. Sometimes you just need to let it out.

I didn't get one of the pictures, but given when they were appearing, I think that's probably for the best. Whatever I needed right then, a reminder of my family wasn't it... I wouldn't mind seeing them now, though. [laughs] Oh, well. Can't have everything!

Re: Voice | Private

[rapier-ex.livejournal.com]

I think...I think being with the one you love helped most.

Voice | Private

[all-heart-sano.livejournal.com]

It...it did.

That's not quite right, though, Virginia-san. I love lots of people...Heisuke's just the one I love in that particular way. It doesn't mean I don't love the rest of my friends, too.

Re: Voice | Private

[rapier-ex.livejournal.com]

I'm not arguing that you don't, Sano-kun. I know full well what you and him have....

Voice | Private

[all-heart-sano.livejournal.com]

I wasn't trying to keep any secrets, you know... I didn't think he felt the same way until recently, and the way I felt...never really came up, I guess.

Sorry...

But...you're still important to me, all right?

Re: Voice | Private

[rapier-ex.livejournal.com]

Yes...and you're still important to me.

Voice | Private

[all-heart-sano.livejournal.com]

I'm glad. I'd hate to think that was the only reason we were friends! [laughs]

Re: Voice | Private

[rapier-ex.livejournal.com]

Of course not. You're an amazing friend, Sano...and I can be happy with that.

Voice | Private

[all-heart-sano.livejournal.com]

I'm glad. I wouldn't want this to hurt our friendship, and I want you to be happy, Virginia-san.

Re: Voice | Private

[rapier-ex.livejournal.com]

This talk is making me feel a bit better...

Voice | Private

[all-heart-sano.livejournal.com]

Well, whenever you need to talk, I'm here.